I have tried my hand at song writing again. I used to be able to write songs….but maybe nursing school has drained the creativity from my brain, and turned me into a wannabe scientist. But that probably isn’t true. I got half way through writing a song. I will just make myself finish it. I need to start performing again or something. You wouldn’t know it by my career choice but playing instruments and making music is so a part of me, and I don’t know where it went. I need to start playing my cello again. It was the coolest thing about me, and now the only thing about me is cake for breakfast…
I worked a 12 hour shift yesterday. It wasn’t so bad. I had this one patient that was extremely difficult and I was trying so hard to be patient and understanding, but I felt that I was still coming across as indignent, frustrated, or annoyed, or something. I asked if she wanted to bathe that day and she said she needed me to wash her back. I gave her a back rub when I washed her back and then her heart was softened and she was 1 billion times nicer and easier to work with, and accomodate.
case and point, when it doubt….rub it out.
TMI….sorry, i am going to be a nurse.
I just felt like I needed to share that life lesson. Patients will love you if you give them a back rub. I think that all most people really need is a back rub.
Don’t go trying this out on strangers or anything, but just be more willing to give a back rub and everyone will be really happy. TRUE STORY.
I went to bed at 10pm last night, and I slept 12 hours. I slept through church. I really didn’t mean to. :(
I love working, and I am so excited about graduating nursing school, and starting my transition into professional nursing practice tomorrow on L and D…but truthfully I feel like a lost lil lamb. I don’t know what is next, and that is the absolute worst thing for someone like me who is constantly trying to plan the future. I don’t have a job here. I don’t want to stay in Baltimore. But I have no money and my lease ends in July and I have no plans. The girls want me to move to SLC, and I want to be with the girls. But I can’t even fathom a move right now with no money and no job leads. I would be willing to move home and try to get work downtown at the medical center. But everyone knows that if you move back home you get pregnant and then you get a job at Target, and that is the last thing I want.
Mo’ money, mo’ problems? I think not. All of my current problems would be solved by money, and nothing else….so….?
Needless to say I am overwhelmed with thoughts of the future and what is going to happen. Many of my peers already have jobs. and i am saying, “BUT HOW?”
Can’t I just figure out how to be creative again and do that for a living?
I need to start working on my dance moves, because I am destined to be a video honey…I would rather do that then work at Target.
Love,
Melissa.
