April 4, 2012

insomniac.

Working the night shift has totally off thrown my circadian rhythm and now instead of being able to sleep during the night, I am finding it hard to sleep at all. It doesn’t mean I don’t want to sleep, because I love sleeping. It just means that when I try to sleep I can’t. When I finally do get to sleep it is usually with the assistance of some sleep inducing medication that are just lying around. But that sleep isn’t normal sleep because I am actually “knocked out” for 9-12+ hours without waking up for anything….anything.

After I finally do wake up from those drug induced sleeps I am in a drowsy daze for at least another 2 hours.

Every time I try to sleep at night I fall asleep at a decent hour and then I wake up 5 hours later and can’t go back to sleep. I watch horrible shows off thecw in efforts to fall back asleep. But it never works and the next thing I know I have watched a whole season of some awful show. It’s the worst.

I guess all the switching from days to nights has taken it’s toll on me. I am not the same young 21 year old, switching days to nights willy nilly, that I was a year ago. Those were the days and I didn’t even know it yet.

Also there is a new two cat minimum on my bed, and one of those cats is almost never Minkee. It’s a bit excessive. I guess the only way to keep them off my bed is to kick them out of my room, but then I would have to shut the door…if you give a moose a muffin. Right ladies?!?!?! I said that to a patient the other day, “if you give a moose a muffin”, not “Right ladies” and they were from another country so they didn’t understand, but it made me miss my childhood reading with the gal gals.

I am going to try to sleep now.

Thanks for reading.

Love,
Surely tired,
Melissa

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April 3, 2012

wait…remind of your name?

Recently I have been easy to forget…

I miss living in Baltimore where I knew no one from any of my other lives. But home in TX and at church in Houston I see people from BYUI, who know me and my sisters, I see people that I went to grade school with and everything in between. It’s all a bit too much. Whenever I see these people I assume, well I remember them so of course they remember me…but sadly I have been wrong every single time. The closest I came to someone remembering me was them being convinced that I was my sister Ashlee. I seriously had to argue the fact that I was indeed not Ashlee, and someone else, and that she had met me previously when at that moment I was still myself and not Ashlee.

I understand the confusion. But us looking this much alike is a rarity.

As I look back on my life I am seeing more and more that this is a trend. Maybe it’s because I have brown hair…

I don’t know. But I think this is not a trend and it’s just the way it is.

When I was 15, Ashlee and I modeled in a runway fashion show in Houston, and someone said to me, “Are you Hannah?” This has become a lasting joke between us, where I said that both of us were asked if either one of us was Hannah, like “Excuse me, but would one of you happen to be Hannah?” Or my personal favorite, “Which one of you’s is Hannahs?”, but I know the truth, it was just me…being mistaken for Hannah, not Ashlee. Once we finally saw Hannah, we knew that being mistaken for her was not a compliment.

It happens a lot at work too. There are not many people of European descent at my job if you know what I mean. But there is one girl named Danielle that works during the day shift, who is also White, and also has brown hair, and we have a similar build. Everyone always thinks I’m Danielle. Patients, doctors, family members, co workers, etc. But it doesn’t ever go both ways. Danielle is never mistaken for me, neither is Ashlee, or Hannah. It just goes one way, where everyone thinks I am someone else or someone they have never met before…

I guess I just need to get real and remember that just because I remember someone it doesn’t mean they will remember me. Also, I shouldn’t remind them that we know each other either, because most likely they still won’t remember who I am…

Just remember me this way

Love,
Hannah.

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March 29, 2012

i miss camp…

I was going through old pics on my comp, and guess what…I miss summer camp. Seriously. I miss girls camp as a 12-17 year old, and pranks with my sisters. I miss working at camp as a health something or other from 18-19. I just miss camp.

I miss my fun Eastern European friends that were so great, and would call me “Melisitchka”.

I miss the Hungarian Sepsi brothers!

I miss the kids. I miss the dancing. I miss Sophia Nasti!

I don’t miss being the only who wasn’t partying on the days off though. I don’t miss that at all. I don’t miss being the goodie, and I don’t miss being so weird for going to church every time I could.

But I am just remembering the dreamy times. The camp I worked at in MA was my favorite, I loved those kids. And lots of the staff was so great, so British, and so fun. But there were lots of not great things too, that I won’t talk about.

I miss dancing with this little girl! She was my favorite dancer. This was on hip hop themed day or something and I was doing my best to be a “fly girl”. We had a great time.

Oh lil’ 19 year old Meliss.

I feel like these times are from a million years ago, or a million miles…a million somethings, 1001 somethings. So much has changed.

But that was a great summer because it was the first time I went to California, went with Ash on mini tour, the first two times I went to France, but most importantly it was the summer I decided to go to Johns Hopkins, and that I was really going to be a Registered Nurse. <3 <3 <3.

So all in all a really important time in my life.

Love,
Miss Camp 2008.

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March 28, 2012

late night shenaniganz.

this happened.

gif maker

not even on purpose either.

I turned in my paper. Hoo-ray.

How does everyone feel about angry birds in space?!?!?!?

I’m just curious.

Love,
Merlerser.

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March 27, 2012

where’s my brain????

At work you make a daily schedule, to remember your patient’s basic information and what time you give certain meds or hang chemotherapy…most people call them your “brain”. But I always think it’s funny because when I can’t find my work “brain” I can’t find my real one either. 

I have been trying to embrace my Danish/Scandinavian culture lately…so I started listening to a Danish language podcast to learn some Danish, and I ordered a few Danish and Scandinavian cookbooks. 

Two of my cookbooks got here today, and I am so thrilled. I was reading them and I called my sisters and my mom to talk about how Danish we already are and we didn’t even know about it. 

Our ancestors are from Svendborg, Denmark, on the island of Funen . I will go there someday. For jersey shore.

dream town.

I had a paper due on Sunday night and my professor was kind enough to give me an extension. I am now 2 days late. I am having the hardest time writing this paper, that’s not even a hard paper to write.

I am just so interested in planning my new Danish life instead of finnishing (get it FInn, cause we’re Scandinavian…har har har) my paper that’s past due.

It’s awful.

Did you know that a baby born in the United States is more likely to have a low birth weight compared to any other developed nation in the world? True story. That is what I am writing my paper about, decreasing the incidence of low birth weight in the African American/non-Hispanic Black female population, it’s that specific. Like you guys even want to hear about my paper….omgeee. 

In other news I think I am getting less awful at my job. So that’s great. 

I’m going to work on this paper now before I fail at life.

Love,
Melissa.

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March 14, 2012

MARCH MADNESS!

I don’t even know what that means…but I just wanted to say, “MARCH MADNESS”. 

Hey ladies, I’m finally on my own at work. Is that a good thing? I don’t know. All in all I’m learning lessons left and writing this post! So here’s a quick top ten life lessons of the past couple weeks…

1. Just because they taught you therapeutic communication in nursing school, doesn’t mean it’s always the best in every situation…i’m just saying.

2. the longer you don’t bathe a dog…the more he smells like a corn chip, to a pork rind. 

3. just dance 3 isn’t so bad after all. i wrote it off initially but, i’m starting to like it. 

4. some people really like adelle and get offended when you say anything to the contrary…so keep adelle like the great pumpkin and don’t talk about her. 

5. it’s hard to keep to a strict caloric intake when you go out on the town…because all you want to do is eat and eat more. 

6. the more tired that i am the more my school work starts to sound like it’s coming from a 10th grade boy, in the worst way. 

7. bananas have 105 calories…take that 100 calorie snack pack. i’d rather spend my calories on the banana. OKEr.

8. cat’s get offended when you work all the time. 

9. if you tell ashlee that you are going to watch portlandia, then you better watch it or else. 

10. bomber jackets make every outfit cool, even scrubs…especially scrubs. 

 

love, m. house

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February 28, 2012

same old, same old.

I just want to share with everyone that regardless of all the changes I am experiencing there is one thing that stays the same…my relationship with my mini cat, minkee.

She is a dream cat, and I can count on her to be cute and sweet always, and always have the softest fur.

I know she looks real mad in this picture, but she was actually purring like crazy, and having a great time. Love this cat!

Having minkee around has been a constant since fall 2009, and I am so glad.

I am pretty sure my mom is going to read this and say “but our relationship is something you can count on, that’s the same…” and that is true. BUT often times our work schedules overlap and I don’t even get to see her before I leave. I love you mom of course, and know I can count on our relationship to be consistent.

Peace, love, and minkee dolls.
- M. House

PS. I had a dream where I had to do chemistry in a class, and then I woke up. What a total nightmare.

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