shambz

yall. i feel like my world is in shamblez. i had to finish a huge pediatric assignment that i missed when i was SO sick. the deadline we made for the makeup was on tuesday and it took me 3 Xs as long as i thought to turn it in so it was two days late. with minus five points for everyday that i was late. after 3 nights of all nighties, i finally turned it in. yesterday i woke up late and missed my bus, and then i called my clinical instructor and told her i was going to be late, and thankfully she was super chill about it. i showed up in a daze, and somehow i made it through. thank you HF. i don’t even know how i got there. i have never drank alcohol before, but i thought is this what it’s like to feel hungover?!?!?! because if it is, IT’s terrible. or maybe it’s just extreme exhaustion. i have no idea. but i did make it through….eventually. when i came home i watched the new episode of the office, and then went to sleep at 5pm until 11am this morning. i was that tired. i don’t think i really missed anything special because when i woke up i hadn’t missed any calls, or messages from anyone, so no one missed me either. i still feel in a daze. i can’t shake this horrible out of it feeling. but i watched the first half of the proj run season finale. michael costello are you okay?!?!?! that was totz scary when he didn’ tmake it in the final 3. no one has ever flipped out like that when they got kicked off the show. i hope you are okay, and i am sending you love and success wherever you are michael!!!! there is a market for your work and people that will jump for it. don’t worry, if your family is lame and h8rz you can still find success any way. truth bonez. <3.

i am so excited for top chef all starz. ah!!!!! if angelo doesn't win. i think the world is broken or something.

also i am supposed to go to this all spanish cultural festival at the DC temple visitors center with my south american friends. too bad i only speak two words of espanol. hopefully it will be a great experience and i will be emersed into lovely culture other then my own. i am excited.

i recently subsribed to real simple magazine, and I LOVE IT!!!! it is the perfect magazine for me i feel like. that magazine, and the woman they are writing it to is the person that i aspire to be. realisticly put together somehow, with great style, a decent income, and beautiful friends to throw parties for, and really awesome functions to go to. hopefully that can be my life someday.

i am still lost lamb 2010. minkee was so mad at me when i was asleep for 19+ hours. she was psst.

she was like, "errr-airrrrr". and i was like, "zzzzzzzz". but we still love eachother. i don't know how i am going to get through the next two semesters and finish school. what am i supposed to do when i graduate?!?!?! get a job. BOR-ing. like anyone would hire me anyway….i have a 2.8 gpa. which translates to worthlessness.

sorry for being a debbie down trodden.

it is the baltimore university ward annual community kids halloween party on monday. i am excited. i am face painting. my favorite event. obvz. last year we only had bad crayons. my drawings ended up being giant blobs on the childrens faces. i felt bad, but i bought folk art acrylic paint this year so i hope it works out like it did when i was a kid – awesomely. are kids allergic to that paint or something!?!?! that's all we had at face painting events when i was growing up???? who knows. it will be great. maybe i will make a display poster and everything.

what am i supposed to do for thanksgiving. i don't know if i am going home, i can't afford to go to slc with me hermanas, and i don't have friends here…so…maybe minkee and i will just be alone this year. i can't think of anything sadder.

i am totz lonely girl.

i feel like i am finally starting to make a real friend at the school of nursing, like not just a school friend. but i don't want to be too over zeal, and scare them away, because thats what i always do…omgeeeee. is there anyone in baltimore that is too intense and needs a friend??? because i'm right here okay.

love,
melissa.

ps. i am planning on making a chiquita bannana girl costume for hallos ween.

but what for even.